Get Up, Get Out of Bed, Drag the Comb Across Your Head

I woke up at about 6:30 today. All on my own! No alarm and no snooze button involved :) But then, that's 6:30 Hawaii time and not 9:30 Utah time. I was worried I would have a panic attack when I first woke up, all my feelings of shock and homesick hitting me in the face after being asleep but it wasn't really like that. The first thing I did was wonder what kind of bird was outside my window making all that noise. It sounded like a fancy rooster. Maybe it was. Then the garbage truck stopped directly outside my room....that's going to fun to wake up to for the next four months.
Oh yeah, that's another thing I realized that I've been doing. Telling myself I'm only here for four months when in reality I'm planning on being here for seven. See what I'm doing to myself there? Downplaying my problem to make myself feel better without even realizing it. We'll see what happens with that.
My roommate never showed up last night which is good because I'm sure I wasn't ready for the awkwardness of sharing a room with someone I don't know yet, plus I've been sitting in bed for three hours on my notebook, doing pretty much nothing. Well, I skyped with the fam for a bit, showed them my room and the bathrooms, the courtyard outside.
Everyone here is still asleep for the most part. I'm not sure the curfew applies during the break because people were up pretty late last night. Karaoke girl sang a few more tunes after I turned my lights out. Well, I'll be honest. I didn't turn my lights out. I slept with them on for two reasons. One: because if my roommate did come in, she wouldn't have to walk into a dark room with a person suddenly sleeping there that she had yet to meet. And two: I was scared. I'll admit it. I slept comfortably, all things considered, so I'm not ashamed to admit that.
I'm sort of torn between wanting my roommate to not be here for a few days and wishing she was here. I consider myself to be a solitary sort of person to a certain degree. I have those I love and trust around me and I'm good with that. But it would be nice to have someone here I know or, I guess, at least start to get to know. I don't even know where the washer and dryers are. Not that I have a huge need for them yet.
Should I go take a shower? I need to eventually but it's weird....the whole situation is feeling strange to me. I'm holding off. I should have showered when I first woke up, before anyone else was in there. At least my appetite hasn't completely gone overboard with nervousness because I feel like I could eat a steak right now. And a huge salad. And a chocolate shake. Then some peaches. I hope I can get peaches pretty easily here. Good ones.
Mreh.....I guess I should go and do stuff. I have to go to the health center and be screened for diseases of some sort and then go get my student ID. Maybe this will be a good opportunity for me to release all my fears with exercise and go running or swimming or something. We'll see.
Off to do new things!


Megan said...


I know what you are doing is hard. It is hard to be away from your family and alone but I know you as an amazing and strong girl who is funny and wonderful. I believe with all my heart that you will make the most of your experience in school and soon be singing out your little heart with bad singing girl!

Have faith in yourself, your family, and the Lord. We are all supporting you and love you!


melissa mae said...

Leese! I love your writing, you're so good with words. I know how homesick you must be, and I can't say enough how proud of you I am, and how EXCITED I am for you. You sounded really good tonight on skype and it sounds like you have lots of fun things to do. I am here 24/7 if you need someone to talk to.

Marlena said...

It must be hard being so far from home, but what an exciting adventure. You should be proud of yourself for being so brave! I'm sure you will meet lots of nice people like your shuttle driver. I can't wait to hear more stories about Hawaii. :)

Angie said...

Homesickness is hard, but it doesn't last too long. You'll do well. I'm glad you're blogging. It will be fun to keep up with your Hawaii adventures.

Melissa said...

I just love that you thought it was a fancy rooster! :) You will remember this experience for the rest of your life and be so grateful for it! I promise. Just remember what the boys form Monty Python always say..."No one expects the Spanish Inquisition!"