I woke up at about 6:30 today. All on my own! No alarm and no snooze button involved :) But then, that's 6:30 Hawaii time and not 9:30 Utah time. I was worried I would have a panic attack when I first woke up, all my feelings of shock and homesick hitting me in the face after being asleep but it wasn't really like that. The first thing I did was wonder what kind of bird was outside my window making all that noise. It sounded like a fancy rooster. Maybe it was. Then the garbage truck stopped directly outside my room....that's going to fun to wake up to for the next four months.
Oh yeah, that's another thing I realized that I've been doing. Telling myself I'm only here for four months when in reality I'm planning on being here for seven. See what I'm doing to myself there? Downplaying my problem to make myself feel better without even realizing it. We'll see what happens with that.
My roommate never showed up last night which is good because I'm sure I wasn't ready for the awkwardness of sharing a room with someone I don't know yet, plus I've been sitting in bed for three hours on my notebook, doing pretty much nothing. Well, I skyped with the fam for a bit, showed them my room and the bathrooms, the courtyard outside.
Everyone here is still asleep for the most part. I'm not sure the curfew applies during the break because people were up pretty late last night. Karaoke girl sang a few more tunes after I turned my lights out. Well, I'll be honest. I didn't turn my lights out. I slept with them on for two reasons. One: because if my roommate did come in, she wouldn't have to walk into a dark room with a person suddenly sleeping there that she had yet to meet. And two: I was scared. I'll admit it. I slept comfortably, all things considered, so I'm not ashamed to admit that.
I'm sort of torn between wanting my roommate to not be here for a few days and wishing she was here. I consider myself to be a solitary sort of person to a certain degree. I have those I love and trust around me and I'm good with that. But it would be nice to have someone here I know or, I guess, at least start to get to know. I don't even know where the washer and dryers are. Not that I have a huge need for them yet.
Should I go take a shower? I need to eventually but it's weird....the whole situation is feeling strange to me. I'm holding off. I should have showered when I first woke up, before anyone else was in there. At least my appetite hasn't completely gone overboard with nervousness because I feel like I could eat a steak right now. And a huge salad. And a chocolate shake. Then some peaches. I hope I can get peaches pretty easily here. Good ones.
Mreh.....I guess I should go and do stuff. I have to go to the health center and be screened for diseases of some sort and then go get my student ID. Maybe this will be a good opportunity for me to release all my fears with exercise and go running or swimming or something. We'll see.
Off to do new things!